Thursday, December 08, 2005

Anxious, Nervous, Excited

Anxious: Just 17 days 'til Christmas!

Nervous: I've never been away from my family at Christmas before.

Excited: A brand new experience, a three night cruise, just me and my guy. We fly out December 23rd, spend two nights in Los Angeles after the cruise, and return home December 28th.


I should add Guilt to my list. The guilt of motherhood. I worry about my son being home alone at Christmas. Though, I did ask him if he'd like to go on this vacation with us, and he wanted to stay home.

There will be lots of family close by, so he won't be totally alone. My 24 year old daughter will be home. She arrives Dec 23rd after we've already left. My parents live just up the road. My brother, his wife and three kids, all from California, will be there at my parents' home. My other brother's 18 year old son will also be at my parents', on holiday leave from Florida where he's stationed in the Navy. And of course, there will be six Yorkies to give him love and kisses.

Speaking of my son... November 18th, he cut his left index finger pretty bad. November 22nd, he had surgery to repair nerve damage. Just this Monday, he had all the stitches removed and started physical therapy. He's doing really good.

Ya know, I've done so well with his injury. I haven't passed out at the sight on my baby boy's blood or the sound of his pain. The night he was brought to the ER, the doc had to put a turnicate on my little guy's finger to stop the bleeding that wouldn't stop on it's own. Blood was EVERYWHERE. Then she irrigated the wound to see, if she could, what the damage was. I stood right there the whole time, watching the entire event without ever getting light headed. I was pretty proud of myself.

But, that first finger curl they made him do Monday, right after they removed his stitches, made me see stars immediately! I was light headed and weak in the knees within a minute. Sounds funny, I'm sure. But I had to sit down before I fell down. lol

Right now, he has four weeks of physical therapy ahead of him. The doctor states it will be a year before he heals, and he may never heal 100%. Last week he had 0% range of motion in his injured finger, today he's at 10%. He's moving in the right direction, getting better and better every day.

15 comments:

Ari said...

I'm glad he is recovering. Oh goodness, yeah I am not one that can handle blood and all that. I would've passed out for sure. Kudos to you for being able to handle it!

Ari

Judith HeartSong said...

oh, all of you be well and safe ... that is an order (I think:)

Colleen said...

A cruise for Christmas sounds wonderful!! I hope you have a great time! :) I also hope your son's finger will heal quicker than supposed to! :)
~Colleen
(Thanks for stopping by my blog!)

Astaryth said...

I'm slowly finding everyone who made the 'Exodus' from AOL and getting them added in to my Bloglines... I've missed the pictures of your 'furkids' and am sooo happy I've found you. Today is the first day in a long time I've had just to surf at my leisure and I'm hoping to relocate many! Right now I'm cruising from blog to blog via the Exodus ring...

A cruise? Woo Hoo!! Sounds like fun! Enjoy and no guilt allowed!
Adventures of an Eclectic Mind

dee said...

Have fun in Vegas! I know about Mother's guilt. Mine are 19 and fifteen and last year was the first time I went on vacation with the hubby without the kids. I was kinda worried the first two days but they did really good on their own so hubby and I are planning on getting away again sometime next year. Happy Holidays!

derasta said...

Don't worry, and just have the time of your life, and don't worry about things at home while you are gone...eveyrone will be ok. We moms always put everyone before us, and I'm sure you have always done that like we all have...it's your time for fun..so enjoy every minute of it and take lots of pics to share here with us!

Solitary Dancer said...

A cruise for Christmas sounds wonderful! I would love to do something like that.

~~Kath~~ said...

Have a great time on your cruise, please take lots of pics to share!
~~Kath~~

psychfun said...

Exciting I hope you have fun! Take lots of pictures so you can show us!

Becky said...

Sometimes I wish I could live my life free of guilt. It always seems to be hanging around putting a damper on my fun. LOL GO! Have a good time! I wish we could come with you. Looks like it's just going to be the three of us for Christmas this year. I actually think it will be nice. Stress free for a change. Glad to hear that your son is improving. He'll be fine for Christmas with so much family around! :-)

alphawoman said...

What a terrible thing it is to see your child in pain. I was Queen of the pass-out. Never hit the floor, but I can not count the times I had to lower my head and breath. So glad he is healing. They are always our babies, no matter what age.

Linda said...

Wow, you are tough, its hard to watch things like that! Especially on your own. Linda
http://journals.aol.com/naturegirlfromny/Atthebaseofthemountains/

Gabreael said...

You'll have a great time!

Gabreael

http://gabreaelsbodymindandspirit.blogspot.com/

Kathy said...

Thanks for the address to your new place!
A Christmas cruise! Sounds great.

tess said...

Everyone gets the vacation, your baby boy included. What better time than home alone for a teenager. Happy to hear that the injury is healing and PT is progressing.
The fur kids are beautiful.
Have a great time.