Anxious: Just 17 days 'til Christmas!
Nervous: I've never been away from my family at Christmas before.
Excited: A brand new experience, a three night cruise, just me and my guy. We fly out December 23rd, spend two nights in Los Angeles after the cruise, and return home December 28th.
I should add Guilt to my list. The guilt of motherhood. I worry about my son being home alone at Christmas. Though, I did ask him if he'd like to go on this vacation with us, and he wanted to stay home.
There will be lots of family close by, so he won't be totally alone. My 24 year old daughter will be home. She arrives Dec 23rd after we've already left. My parents live just up the road. My brother, his wife and three kids, all from California, will be there at my parents' home. My other brother's 18 year old son will also be at my parents', on holiday leave from Florida where he's stationed in the Navy. And of course, there will be six Yorkies to give him love and kisses.
Speaking of my son... November 18th, he cut his left index finger pretty bad. November 22nd, he had surgery to repair nerve damage. Just this Monday, he had all the stitches removed and started physical therapy. He's doing really good.
Ya know, I've done so well with his injury. I haven't passed out at the sight on my baby boy's blood or the sound of his pain. The night he was brought to the ER, the doc had to put a turnicate on my little guy's finger to stop the bleeding that wouldn't stop on it's own. Blood was EVERYWHERE. Then she irrigated the wound to see, if she could, what the damage was. I stood right there the whole time, watching the entire event without ever getting light headed. I was pretty proud of myself.
But, that first finger curl they made him do Monday, right after they removed his stitches, made me see stars immediately! I was light headed and weak in the knees within a minute. Sounds funny, I'm sure. But I had to sit down before I fell down. lol
Right now, he has four weeks of physical therapy ahead of him. The doctor states it will be a year before he heals, and he may never heal 100%. Last week he had 0% range of motion in his injured finger, today he's at 10%. He's moving in the right direction, getting better and better every day.
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