Life does go on.
I have cried a river of tears over the death of my little Harley. I still cannot believe it's true. I remember asking my guy, "Are you sure he's gone? Are you sure?" As if maybe, just maybe, only the air had been knocked out of the little guy. Because my guy and Harley are out for a week at a time, it's hard for me to truely believe Harley is gone. For my guy, it's very real. He lived this horrible nightmare. For me, my guy hasn't been home since the day of the accident, their first morning out. My guy will be home tomorrow morning for the first time since the accident. Harley will not be there. This will then become so very real to me.
Yes, that's a Harley my Harley is on. He loved to go! He didn't care how or where he went as long as he got to go!
A couple of days after the accident, my guy made a call to the people we had bred Harley with their little Meggie, to see if they had any puppies left. The puppies are 8 weeks old. We got Rodney for our stud fee a couple of weeks ago. They had one puppy left, it's a male. He's twice the size of Rodney, more like Harley. My guy then told them that Harley was gone and he would like this puppy if they didn't have anyone interested in him. They felt so bad. The puppy was ours if we wanted him. They would hold the puppy until my guy was back in town.
My guy hadn't finalized this deal with them yet, but tonight, the lady called me to see if we still wanted this little guy. She knew how upset we had been over losing Harley and wanted to make sure we weren't having second thoughts about taking another puppy, now that some time had gone by. I assured her we were still very interested in having another puppy. She said to come by tonight and pick up "Andre", we'd work out the finances later. Wow!
Early tomorrow morning, I will be picking up my guy from his run without Harley for the first time. Immediately after his arrival home, we are going to Salt Lake City to see my daughter and her band play a club there. Got the tires rotated today, the oil was changed last week. I had our girls, Lucy and Molly, groomed today. They are so pretty. This was Molly's first grooming. She turned out beautiful! Rodney had his ears and toes nails trimmed. And then, I picked up Andre. In the morning, I will pick up my guy with a puppy for him. I haven't seen my daughter since last February.
The little tree that could.
1 week ago
11 comments:
I hope you got the new puppy. They never replace the fond memories of the other pets, but they create a whole new loving spot in your heart. And the little spirit of Harley will be right beside it! Please show us a pic!!! You will be in my thoughts in the coming days.
Sonya
Comment from bookncoffee - 11/6/04 8:08 AM
It's hard to lose any family member, two-legged or four-legged. All you can do is thank God for the time you had with them and treasure the memories. http://journals.aol.com/mosie1944/MYCOUNTRYLIFE/entries/456
Comment from mosie1944 - 11/6/04 8:25 AM
I feel for you, hon. Our little Buddy has been gone for almost three years and I still get weepy when I think about him. Hugs. *Barb*
Comment from barbpinion - 11/6/04 11:22 AM
I'M SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT HARLEY, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, I LOST MY BRODY (BELOVED 12 YS OLD SIAMESE) A YEAR AGO OCT 22, 4:43 AM.............SOOOO SAD, MY HOME HAS NOT BEEN THE SAME....................STORMIE
Comment from stormie4851 - 11/6/04 9:42 PM
Oh I just read the entry before this and of course this one. NO, it's not silly to feel like you've lost a child! I'd be so devestated if I lost my puppy. I'm sooo terribly sorry. I wish I could say something or do something to make you feel better.
Monica
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Comment from sonensmilinmon - 11/6/04 10:10 PM
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been
especially close to someone here,
that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge
There are meadows and hills for all
of our special friends so they can run
and play together.
There is plenty of food, water
and sunshine, and our friends
are warm and comfortable.
All the animalswho had been ill
and old are restored to health and vigor.
Those who were hurt or maimed
are made whole and strong again,
just as we remember them in our dreams
of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content,
except for one small thing;
they each miss someone very special
to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes
when one suddenly stops and looks
into the distance. His bright eyes are intent.
His eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from
the group, flying over the green grass,
his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when
you and your special friend
finally meet, you cling together
in joyous reunion,never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face;
your hands again caress the beloved head,
and you look once more into the trusting eyes
of your pet,so long gone from your life
but never absent from your heart
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown
Comment from marainey1 - 11/7/04 6:05 AM
I came to visit you from Sonya's "Bookncoffee" journal. I cried through your last 2 entries. My condolences to you and your guy. I have a beloved Sheltie girl, Lucy, and well... I can't imagine life without her. Time will ease your pain, but you will never forget your Harley. He's waiting for you on the other side and he will wait as long as it takes. Take care.
Susan
Comment from dakotarose2852 - 11/7/04 7:16 AM
May Harely run free at the Rainbow Bridge. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so hard when we lose our beloved companions...
~JerseyGirl
Comment from cneinhorn - 11/7/04 9:26 AM
i want to introduce myself...my name is linda and i live in spokane,wa...your neighbor so to speak...this is my first time to your journal and will definately be back...i was so sorry to hear about the loss of your baby harley...its not silly to cry at all...i would be in tears for days on end if that ever happened to any of my pets...they become a part of the family and we love them just like our kids....and even though u are getting a new puppy u still will mourn the loss of little harley...my heart goes out to u and your husband....its so sad....
linda
http://journals.aol.com/lindainspokane/LifewithLinny
Comment from lindainspokane - 11/11/04 12:16 AM
Poor little Harley! I'm so sorry to read about your loss. I recently lost my fur baby Sheba to liver disease. She was 15, but still my baby. I miss her every day.
Comment from ryanagi - 11/11/04 12:36 PM
Life does go on but our hearts still hurt. Our little poodle was put to sleep two years ago and I still miss him very much. I'm glad you're getting another puppy. He won't be Harley but will perhaps fill up the empty space a little bit. Hugs. *Barb"
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Comment from barbpinion - 11/11/04 10:28 PM
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